Things are settling down, we are finding our new rhythm and adjusting to the new schedule. My meltdowns are less frequent and not as dramatic and I am feeling more confident and in control. At first I was breaking down in tears every couple of days...either because I was overwhelmed by the amount of work in front of me, insecurities about the "office politics", or the feeling of failure to be a great wife and mother amidst it all.
Now, I feel like I am done freaking out (I am not saying that I won't still freak out on occasion). But, I am chaneling my energy in a more positive way and I am finding ways to connect with my husband and kids. I may not spend as MUCH time with them, but I am trying to make sure that the time is QUALITY. Today, Gavin and I played a couple of rounds of War and I sat with Ella while she picked out her clothes for the week. Andy and I took advantage of a kid free two hours on Sunday and sat together before heading out to Target.
The holidays are coming and I know that they will provide some more challenges to overcome, but I am ready. Heck, they are coming whether I am ready... or not.
